I wrote this little piece, because I do that sometimes, and I’d like to share it with you.
Enjoy!
Home is busy streets. It’s Christmas lights starting November. It’s the cheapest deals you can find, stray cats and dogs, rainy-sunny days and dark, lampless nights.
I never knew what home was, and never really thought of this place as one. I always somehow felt, left out. Like I didn’t really belong. That I wasn’t supposed to be here.
When I was younger, it was always just this childish desire, to live somewhere far. I centered all my dreams on moving away. As I grew up, the more obvious it felt to me, that I belonged elsewhere. That even if I wanted to speak the language of this place (and I really can, don’t get me wrong), some people made fun of me, for trying. And maybe that was the start of it. A hiraeth. A small demon that pioneered this longing for a home, that never was.
Now that I’m older, and I ask myself again that same question, I find myself thinking of my childhood. My cousins whom I’d play with until dusk. My grandfather, who is now no longer with us. My dog. My friends.
So no, home is not busy streets and Christmas lights starting November. Neither is it the cheapest deals, nor stray cats and dogs. It’s not rainy-sunny days, or dark, lampless nights–it never was.
Home is making videos about Chicken boys, and Neil Patrick Harris. It’s grandfather kisses and grandfather’s “don’t go baby, don’t go.” It’s Karaoke with unlimited drinks and ice cream every Friday, Trail 6, words of encouragement, and a lot of very stupid moments.
Home is not a place.
It never was.
Two entries in two days! Amazing. I don’t really know what inspired me to write that, all I know is, there are still times, I find it hard to deal with the fact that some people are just so far away, and that I don’t really know when’s the next time we’ll be together again. But I also know how thankful I am for those same people who have encouraged me until this day. So if you’re with your loved ones, family, friends–whomever you believe to be is your home, never take time with them for granted. Appreciate them and support them. Be with them, fully. Because you just never know.
Comment below what you think home is. See you guys in the next one! It might come sooner than you think!
caitdegreat 
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